I say "Peace" (I quit)
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Yeah folks…. Time for me to say "Peace".
After 12-13 years of beats making, I've recently decided to quit.
I will probably keep making beats here in front of my pair of Mackie HR-824 speakers for a couple of months/year(s) but I wont submit my beats to emcees anymore and wont collab with emcees anymore.
I've seen a lotta things in 12 years…. Dudes claiming to be ready to bang and running away when we was close to put something out…. Dudes being really ready but being scared of putting something out….. dudes stealing my beats and trying to sell them behind my back…. Dudes that need a year to record a joint and send it back to me…. Dudes threating me when I told them what they aint used to hear…. Dudes being fucking paranoiac whatever you tell them…Dudes on some "fuck you pay me" attitude …..
Actually those ones are the ones that got on my nerves (and still get on my nerves) the most (along with the ones that doesn't keep you posted about what they doing with your beats).
Don't get me wrong tho, I understand that some guys wanna get paid, but come on …. Do you REALLY deserve it ? Does someone with a very average flow deserve to get paid $1000 for a 16 bars freestyle ? Can a cat accept to collab with you and after 8 months ask you for money even tho he hasn't talked about it in the first place ?
The thing is, am European … am not american… Am not addicted to the money like most of those American guys I been in contact with. If you are not European and are reading this blog, you probably gonna think that am a fucking hater …. I cant blame you for that but soon enuff you'll find out that I was right. Music is a passion first …. Not a job here….
I see a lotta dudes leaving their everyday life behind in order to focus only on their music… the fact is they just lose their mind in this game … cause it's not safe….
We don't do that here…We have a job, or study and we make music when we get home from work … or on the week end.
I've been asked " dude, why don't u try to make… ? " … am like " hell NO!!!" … I have a job to pay my bills … music is a passion …. That's just something I wanna share with other passionate people…. I really don't care about the money …. Some folks have eyeballed when I told them that I never tried to sell a beat in my whole life.
That's why am standing back from this hip hop game now … Hip Hop is dead because of you …. That's no joke… There's no more love, no more passion, no more peace, no more unity in this game nowaday …. Everybody wanna rap… everybody wanna be the next Lil Wayne, the next 50 Cent or whatever …Kids are too lazy to go to school, get a decent level of education and get a nice 9-5 …. They rather sell shit in order to be able to have something to relate to when they turn in to "emcees" ….. so called emcees actually.
There's a lot more reasons that lead me to that decision… but I aint gonna let my fingers bleed typing this shit …. I would like to thanks all the good people I met in this Hip Hop Road tho.
Aiiight …. Time for me to say ……
I'm sorry to hear that your time in the music industry left a bitter taste in your mouth. I can understand why you would feel the way you do looking at it in your shoes. however, I think you misunderstand American Hustle for a greedy addiction. you wrote and I quote...
"The thing is, am European … am not american… Am not addicted to the money like most of those American guys I been in contact with."
You are right, there are some people who are addicted to money, I'm one of them so believe me when I tell you, you misunderstand us.
Most Americans hate their 9 to 5's and regret their lives eventually.(in fact I think most people in the world do) We Americans live in a vicious system that for most people turns us into workers who kill them selves to make a living. It's fear that keeps a dreamer from manifesting his/her dreams. For those brave few who say NO! I'm going to make my passion my life, they also live in fear, Fear that they will have to go back to that rat race and treat their passion as a side hobby. My friend, for me that is true pain and regret. I'm so passionate about music that I must be able to create it when I feel the urge to. For that freedom to be taken away and told to spend 8 hours of my day, plus the commute to work, plus the time it takes to get ready, then go home and force my self to create in the late hours of the night like it's some dark addiction I must tend to when know one is around is pure anguish. I can't speak for others but when I say "Fuck You Pay me" it's because I never want to go back to "Wear a suit and sit in this cubical" state penitentiary. I'm not buying rims with your euro's I'm paying rent, feeding my self and sending money back to Sudan for my family. I say it all the time. "I make music for a living so I can live to make music" I can't have it any other way. If it's truly your passion you'll trade that fear of instability for a healthy fear that motivates you. (add talent to really make this receipt pop)
There's nothing wrong with making music your career. We should encourage all humanity to at least try to make their passions their career. As with most careers/jobs, (big difference between the two) there's to many people applying and not enough available positions. To many people who went to school for the wrong thing, to many people stopped their education to soon only to realize that you wont get that real money until you get a masters degree...... You Wont Get Paid Until You Master Your Craft. That sounds pretty hip-hop to me and that's how it should be.
As I said before I'm an American addicted to money. I'm addicted to what money allows me to do not the idea of never having enough of it. living in a capitalist country with poor health care, a decaying social security system and stress will do one of two things to you, make you stop at nothing to make it work for you or stop all it is that you are for you to work for it. I see my addiction as a good vice if there is such a thing.
I'm only writing this because I see you as a peer and comrade. It's good to know you'll still make music, just because it's not for MC's makes it no less passionate. For your self and for hip-hop keep doing your thing, peace.